Greetings ALL
I will track my journey in IIEM through the phenomenological lens of someone who wants to experience love in its purest form. The IIEM program is my potential lover and right now we are in the very preliminary stages of "like".
Our gazes have just met (because we are now three weeks into the program) and there is an excitedness occuring within me, you know like the butterflies in the stomach, but yet still I communicate with my eyes that I want more...I want to engage deeper. I'm throwing caution to the wind because...well there's no reason not to! But do I even know what I'm doing? Am I asking for trouble?
All the questions point to one answer: I'm in this for love. The love that engages that connection with my spiritual self and the excitement of possibly getting to know my potential lover beyond a superficial level. The love that catalyses the evolution of ignorance into knowledge, lack of insight into wisdom and insecurity into fearlessness!! 1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love's complete perfection]."
Right now I am afraid which means I am immature, fractured, insecure and unbelieving but I want to dive in head-first to develop maturity and wholeness and the qualities (strengths) I heard he possesses. I'm undeniably disoriented, taking calculated risk, I'm not entirely sure if I'm experiencing infatuation. All I know is that I want to get to know my potential lover on a personal level for now aand I eventually want to experience love. He knows a lot about business and entrepreneurship and in order for me to get the knowledge that he has, I need to connect with him on a personal level first. But how?
It's amazing how much of entrepreneurship is about people skills. We (the class) are being encouraged to develop these skills to heighten our sense of self as well as an awareness of others. I appreciate that we are receiving guidance to help us connect with people apart from the technical knowledge we are taught.
Having the most accounting knowledge or the best marketing strategies means very little if one has no relational skills as an entrepreneur. So knowing myself better through "people-sensitivity" training is important because I will need it to communicate on a personal level with IIEM even if our relations do not develop into a loving one ( I really hope it does though; he's got swagger like no other and an intense energy). I just dont want to be overwhelmed by his presence in my life, you kno?
Apprehension aside, I hope IIEM makes the first move, walks over here and starts a convo. I hope he teaches me all I need to know, takes me seriously despite my youth, says everything I want to hear, doesn't keep me up late at night and basically makes my life easy...that is if I can make it beyond the first phase of a potential courtship. But I'm getting ahead of myself here, he may not even be interested in getting to know me, still I await his first move with baited breath and I will let you know what happens. I'm in, but is he?
Salam
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